You say you have a reservoir of love and care and yet nowhere to put it, but my question would be, why would you want to pour it away into anything else? That love and care is precious (as I’m sure you well know), and you should first be using it to keep yourself feeling nourished and inspired and cherished. The world outside won’t always be able to provide you with the kind of warmth and intimacy you may desire, so it’s important to have an inner source of love and hope to sustain you and empower you to lead an active and joyful life of your own choosing.
To be sure, it is crushing and very hard to bear when you feel like you’ve given your everything to something or someone, only to have them leave and not look back for the most part. I think most of us can relate to that. I do. But it is also important to start recognising the reasons for that kind of cycle, and to figure out what you can actually do to turn it into a positive, upward spiral.
I think it’s wonderful that you have such an immense capacity for feeling, but it is really important to be able to manage it and channel it in ways that are productive and helpful, both to you and others. Otherwise, it can become too easy to use the excuse of having overwhelming feelings to push your own agenda of wanting to be loved on other people, which will unfairly put them under a lot of pressure and possibly even drive them away.
I think over time and with some practice, you will get to reach a calmer, more peaceful space within yourself, where love and affection are felt as a deep and tranquil current rather than with all the battering forces of a tsunami.
Remember, the capacity to feel is an ability, and like all abilities, it will need to be trained and developed if you want to gain the most out of it and do the least harm by it.
Wishing you well and good luck in all things. Lots of love.